Welcome to Episode 204 of my podcasts The view from the crow's nest. It is Sunday the 24th of January 2021. Now, after yesterday, where as the day progressed and then went into the evening into the night I got into worse and worse mood. And I knew that it was, you know, the way I was looking at things rather than things themselves you know, as is always the case it's one's own interpretation of things that, you know, judges, whether they're good or bad or whatever and I was looking at everything and everything I was looking at was looking bleak or bad or put at a seminar man. You got to sort yourself out. So, this morning. I came up with a very cunning plan. It's very simple plan. I stayed in bed all day until about four o'clock in the afternoon. And basically I realised I needed a day off the simple as it is. I needed a day to not think about work and not think about art not think about anything. Just, just relax really just mom. And as always is the case Simona was so helpful and supportive and wonderful and she bought me breakfast in bed and then she brought me lunch and cuddled with her cuddle with her kids I fought with the kids in bed we battled each other. And I just, I watched UFC all day, basically. And just blanked everything It was really needed, like really needed. It was pissing down rain outside the whole day. I landed at four o'clock. I got dressed got kids got dressed, and the four of us went outside to play basketball there's a porch area that sheltered from the rain so we played there for a bit. And then, Leonardo wanted to go in the rain and then meanwhile it's going to rain I said yes we'll go in the rain. And there'll be big, big puddles and we thought Screw it. So we, the three of us, me and the kids were just jumping in the puddles and I got so soaked. Like, literally from, from tip to toe inside and out. Even my shoes you know all of the the kids and I our shoes which a waterproof had puddles in them you know it was like, totally soaked. And then we really enjoyed that and then we came in, had a bath together, and then go out and then went to get dinner and do video calls with friends and whatnot and then we had a power cup. And so, I celebrated the power cup by having some Baylor's which put me in a very good mood. And then we lit candles everywhere and had dinner, because at least the gas was working, and then got the kids into bed and then the power came back on so it was only out for about two three hours. It was really really enjoyable day. And I guess before that I'd worked for maybe about 10 days straight or something. And apart from the days that I had training I've been starting in about 10. And even with the days that I had training I'll be finishing at about 8pm. Pretty much every day. I don't know why I can, what to show for it but I've been doing a really intense and it's just been draining me and I because it's not, it's not the sort of work that gives you more energy, such as creative work is the sort of work that really drains you you know, studying marketing and business are working for clients and blah blah blah. So yeah, it's a lesson to myself and to anybody else who may be listening and feeling challenged at some point, sometimes we just need to pay off, simple as it sounds, and at least today. That seems to have done the trick. Of course, tomorrow's a new week I'll be back in it got a new client started so it's all going to be, you know, full on. But I think I need to get, as I've been saying for the last week or so or two, I need to get back to do my own art, I need to find a way to you know make that part of my regular routine again, because it was working for me very well, just before Christmas. And since then, you know, I wanted to focus on the marketing the business start building my fan base stop getting my clients fan bases, that's working, and to get back to what it is I'm doing in the first place. So that is the view from the crow's nest today at half 10 in the evening. So